Values Survey

1. altruism
2. love, friendship, personal closeness
3. education, intelligence, wisdom
4. fulfillment, intellectual and vocational achievement
5. education, intelligence, wisdom
These were the results to the value survey I took; I think they hit the nail on the head. I do believe that each and every person should be treated equally and fairly. I do look to have close and meaningful relationships with my friends and family, also to be able to trust one another with anything and everything. Education, intelligence, and wisdom are values I find very important; I want to continue to learn as much as I can and graduate at the top of my class. And for number four, my answers were also very true because I look for a future that I'll enjoy. I want to be happy with the career that I have and the life that I live and to be able to do what I want.

I found that these answers were very true and I found it weird how accurate they were. In looking at the answers I saw that what I want most is to be happy with my future, relationships, my academic careers, and to have everyone be treated equally.

Do I have to grow up?

Is it weird that I find it overwhelming to be a sophomore in high school, and already have to plan out your life during and after college? Because that's how I feel; when I was younger I thought I knew what would happen and that everything would fall into place and work out. I thought that I wouldn't face any ordeal or crucible that would distract me from my goals. When I was 5 I knew I wanted to be an artist. It was a dream I still have but one that I probably won't reach, in the sense that I won't major in it and go to art school.

Class recommendations, PSATs, SATs, it all makes me think about my future and how mind-boggling it is to decide a major, find a college, and plan a career path. I wish I could be like Peter Pan and not grow up sometimes, as silly as it seems. My email is spammed with a plethora of emails from colleges/universities due to me checking the Student Search Service box on my PSAT. I had to create a new email folder dedicated to "College Spam". It's nice to know that my acheivements thus far have caused schools to consider me as a student, even being a sophomore, but it makes me think how little time I have to do just that, THINK. (But I was excited to see Columbia in NY send me an email, since they're one of my top choices. I almost fell out of my chair.) To think about what I want to do for my future. Being an artist or a fashion designer really depend on who you meet and know, more practical intelligence than anything. Astrophysics, although it does take 13 years to earn a Ph.D, it will land me a job and stability, and it's something I take a deep interest in.

I guess what I'm getting at is that I wish I didn't have to think about my future so early into my life, that I didn't have to worry about college and majors and degrees and jobs. I miss the days where all I had to worry about was whether or not I had fruit snacks in my lunchbox and a pink crayon to color stuff with.